change any one?

Hello there friendly people :)

I once….long ago…was a hatter of change.
refusing the new, clinging to the old.
and i wont lie (becuase i am honest) that i do still do this offten.
but, as a always changing being, i can not stop the changes in my life or the things that stay the same either.

i find it funny that i, as a young person, have so little changes go on…that when a small one comes my way it seems like the worst thing ever.
i dont like this.
not at all.

i like my constants….i like them very much…and i dont like them leaving me. but of course…
lately….they have been leaving like i am the black plague.

arg.
but, if you know me at all
you know that i am one to just ignor and only discreetly be upset about the down falls in my life.

and you also know that i really have no idea what i want to say in this blog….

arg.

i guess what i want to say…is that i give up.
i dont really want to care that much that i get upset when things change.

i have discovered, that God takes things away when they take our focus off of him….because for us to be truly happy we must keep our eye on him.
so if things are changing it must be for my best.

and i guess i should be happy.
and in reality i am.
i have it much better off then some people and no one is hurting(physically) me or leaving me (emotionally)
I am the one leaving if anything.
my swift choice to go the catholic school in my area is leaving the friends i have at my public school…the ones i take for nothing and dont even count as friends half the time….

but ya.
thats my life,
its just me.
being a prick
as always.

oh and, as a frequent surffer of the internet, i Viva, have forund a place more suitable for me to post my blog; it is at; http://www.tumblr.com

:)

SO this will be my last word press blog!! :’( {not that anyone has really read it in the longest time}

if you wish to continue to read my lame and trivial thoughts, you can do so here. but its not much yet ;D

check it?

i think you all should take a look at my flickr page.
it will update you on my life and let you see some of my best pictures :)
i would LOVE it if you allllll clicked on the link :)

Thingsss….

So, these are my favorite of thoses ‘things guys need to know about girls’ groups that are on acebook and stuff,
i though it would be fun to share them, seeing as they are sooooo true :)

8. If a guy is bothering your girlfriend, it is your right to beat the sh!t out of him.

9. If you’re talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer. It’ll make her feel secure that you love her more than the other girl.

19. Remember: Girls are pretty, but yours is the Prettiest!

35. I expect you to call me. If you don’t, you go down.

38. You look hot in hooded clothing items. Always.

45. Girls need to hear how you feel about them. Often. Tell her now.

51. We can fall in love with you without really knowing you, if you are an @ss, we will find out, and we will get over it. Fast. Don’t ruin it.

58. Call sometimes, just to say hi, not for a certain reason. When we see your number on caller ID, our heart always skips a beat. Try calling just to say good night, or good morning, its soo adorable!

66. We like our hands to be held and our waists to be touched.

81. If we’re not talking to you, we secretly want you to talk to us first

100. If a girl really likes you, just seeing you will make her day.

102. Every time you smile at us, it may mean only a little to you, but it means the world to us. Don’t take the little things for granted.

love you world!
xoxo – Viva :)
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Frugal.

Although trying to save money and clipping coupons at every chance has nothing to do with the coming post…it is a fun word, that i enjoy.
and i don’t remember to word i was going to use as a tittle so ‘frugal’ is close enough.

This year has been mixed so far. nothing really has changed physically…just…emotionally.

if you know what i mean.

things still looks the same
sound the same
they feel the same when you touch them
they smell the same
and taste the same.

conversations still carry the same tone
and hands still go the same places

the same things are done
and the same places are visited.

but.
things
FEEL

different.
or at least they should.
for the same feelings are not in place as they were 48 hours ago.

so,

there are Three options i can consider.

1) Things aren’t really different…they just are pretending to be for an unknown reason.
2) My life for the past 4 month has been a sham, and there-for things aren’t really different.
3)Things have changed all together and i am just not allowing my self to fully see it.

I remember during PRiME Speed gave me three choices for many things.
from then on i saw the sensibility of it, and did the same for most things in my life.

But this time i was given no options.
nothing to reason with or play with.

just a
“this is how it is…..I think”

which confused me quite a bit….because even though i had noticed a few off things over the past few weeks, it hadnt been enough to bother me.
or
not enough to bother me into a fit of trying to figure out what was wrong.

but its funny how emotions can change, how memories can change with just a little time.

because memories, that once were happy and made me giddy and blush to my self, now only make me worried and longing.
they just dont feel the same,
things may never feel the same.

Memories of trees and lakes.
of blushing and giggling
of screaming and falling

of stupid things like that.

of things that are too embarrassing and too old to post on my blog with out being harassed ;D

but i wont complain, i wont cry on gossip.

ill just be Frugal.
because all things come to an end (even if you don’t want them too) so ill snip and clip and find ways to save.

xoxo
Viva