DownHill

Well then.

it has been sometime between posts.

i have no excuse for this.

truly, no excuse.

maybe its just the fact that no one has even looked at my blog page in forever and a day.

maybe the fact that im just all round upset at everything for no good reason.

who knows.

well, lets catch up on whats been going down.

last week;

was productive…not really. i haven’t seen Speed in over a week due to some horrible sickness that has fallen upon him. at first we thought it may be his meds (for heart and thyroid) that were acting up. but now he just feels like shit and is legitimately sick – passing it on to bruno who now is also sick.

this sucks for me because it meant that all of me plans last week ended in ruins and me feeling unmentionable sorry for my self. just wishing for heath to return to him.

not to mention that fact that he never calls, never writes and this also upsets me.

not to mention that i went to a code Blue, experienced death, and dealt with it perfectly. didnt care at all – ya now i feel like a freak for laughing at a joke five mins before this dude died. and really, i dont even feel bad – what up, it happend, get over it. im not allowed to go to a code pink (when a kids heart stops) because i would be to hard on me… but no, um, it wouldnt be thanks, i can deal with it.

not to mention i hate my life when im not at the hospital. (ironic?)

or that no one has been reading my blog.

and this brutaly boring and morbid post will trun people off forever.

xoxo Viva!